.: The End To A Crazy Week

So.. we have had quite the week! Hudson woke up Monday night hysterical. He had never had a night terror until than and it made us freak out to say the least. It reminded me alot of when we were in the hospital and one night no matter how hard we tried, he would not sleep in the bed in his tiny hospital room. He kept waking crying and screaming "No pens! No needles!". We took his tiny shaking body, full of sweat, and as he wrapped his legs tightly around us, he just cried. That night in the hospital, Rene and I took turns holding him all through the night. Well, this Monday night was similar. Hudson woke up, frantic. His eyes open and had a wild look in them. Full of fear as he clawed his way into our arms and kept on bringing up his legs and screaming hysterically. Never have we experienced a night terror where their eyes were open. He kept on going really stiff like a board in my arms and my fear was that he was going to have a seizure. So as Rene frantically searched the house for Hudson's finger checker ( which I brought downstairs with me in my hurry to see what the problem was) I held my shaking, hallucinating little boy, terrified to death of what was going on and feeling so incredibly helpless at the same time. All I kept thinking was " I read somewhere that this is what happens when they go low.. please dont go into a coma!" The next challenge was to try and check Hudson's finger as he was clawing and climbing me, trying to get away from whatever was haunting his dreams. 26.5! that was his number.. very high but at least he wasn't low. Finally after 10 minutes of him being totally out of it, he wet himself which , Thank God, snapped him out of it. Now I had a devastated little boy who was so incredibly sorry that he peed himself! After a quick change.. a few prayers for happy dreams, Hudson was off to sleep again. But, that night, I couldn't shake the fear that had engolfed me as I held my son, helplessly praying that it was nothing more than a nightmare.

And than again, this morning, Hudson woke up crying that he was dizzy, shaky and pukey. 3 words a parent of a diabetic child does NOT want to hear. I immediately started to panic as I rushed around, lining up my sick day supplies... Puke blanket.. check!, Pillow... check!, Ketone stix.. check.. Red binder of sick day guidelines.. check! and an email off to Hudson's diabetic nurse, Jane.. check! But, as I was in the closet, taking down the bright red binder from the top shelf.. It slipped and a rush of loose papers that were also stacked on the same shelf fell... leaving a HUGE mess of bills, coupons and sheets all over my floor. Annoyed, I gathered them up in my rush of trying to get my assembly line nicely organized before Rene left for work. Hudson refused to eat anything I gave him, which is also scary since his blood glucose number was 4.1! Which is super low considering he should be around 6-10! Again, frantic, I search the house for something he will eat. Something that I know will bring up his numbers and fast! Grabbing the honey stix and a cars 2 sucker, I try to nicely force my lil guy to eat something! Opting out of giving him his insulin for another hour, I let the sugar take its time getting into his little body. Thankfully, Rene came home in time to bring Hudson a bottle of REAL ginger ale. Within minutes of sucking on the sucker and sipping his sugar filled pop.. Hudson sits up and says " I'm not shaky anymore Mommy, Can I have some pancakes and scrambled eggs??" Relieved, but still leery, I check his little finger and was never so happy to see the number "9" as I was at that moment! I decided that if he was really sick, that maybe scrambled eggs should be out of the question since I didn't want to clean them off the floor. But, he did gobble up the pancakes! I am grateful for the end of an "off" week and looking forward to the start of summer holidays!!!

Thank you to everyone who was giving me advice earlier this morning and for not judging me in my state of panic :) I am just thankful for a happy little boy and for the beautiful view from my kitchen table as I look out the window at nothing but green trees and purple flowers blowing in the gentle breeze!